urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor Why Do I Feel Soaked In Cinamon? Why Do I Feel Soaked In Cinamon? 2003-04-14T01:04:57Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:189240 2003-04-14T00:57:56Z 2003-04-14T01:04:57Z at last...my love has come along :) (song from last night) So I finally got around to making a new livejournal...<br />I kinda feel like I'm starting everything over, so I figured, you know, it fit...<br /><br />5's a charm...right?<br /><br />{{ EVERYONE BETTER ADD ME OR I'LL PUSH YOU IN A HOLE...TWICE ))<br /><br /> <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/grlingrnjacket/">My New Livejournal</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:188937 2003-04-14T00:08:48Z 2003-04-14T00:08:48Z "who was that other guy with you"<br />HAH! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:188722 2003-04-13T21:06:35Z 2003-04-13T21:06:35Z ...Heathers. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:188600 2003-04-13T16:28:32Z 2003-04-13T16:28:32Z haha. anthrax on a tampax. that's just great. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:188180 2003-04-13T16:24:11Z 2003-04-13T16:24:11Z Jew - If you don't don't Homework...<br /><br />x study history<br />x finally read that book for English<br />x the chem shit I promised myself I'd do<br />x algebra homework...cuz I really need to start doing it<br /><br />CDS...<br /><br />x KELLY'S CD<br />x the new linkin park for linds<br />x sum 41 for linds<br />x new JEW...i literally broke mine in half<br />x new finch...it's skipping...<br />x rachel's cd<br /><br /><b>!!AND I NEED TO MAKE A NEW JOURNAL!!</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:188141 2003-04-13T16:08:46Z 2003-04-13T16:08:46Z My window's open, and it's nice out. And it smells really good in my room. I love life right now. Oh, fucking damnit why can't these feelings stay? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:187815 2003-04-13T15:59:52Z 2003-04-13T15:59:52Z Katie came over yesterday...<br />we kinda just chilled, she fell in love with Mikey...<br />we went up to the Ryerson Market...SKREWBALLS and capachino.(that's not how you spell it)<br /><br />Uh...yeah, so we just did random shit, then everyone left to go out to dinner so we made tuna...<br />and had some nice conversations...<br /><br />We went on Steph's screen name (sorry steph) and talked to james, he thought it was Kyle the whole time, and he thought he was drunk, the whole time...you don't like tits, cuz YOU'RE GAY!! it came with the package, you like packages, CUZ YOU'RE GAY!!...on and on and on...just calling him gay 9384938493 times...and it was still funny, man, it was so fucking random and great...<br /><br />Then we called him, screamed YOU'RE GAY...and he STILL thought it was Kyle, he's like "oh, you must be one of Kyle's female friends..."<br />It just went on and on forever and it was the funniest shit EVER. I'll probably post the ENTIRE conversation, just for shits and giggles.<br /><br />Yeah...<br />so the whole time we ate about an entire box of cereal...<br />and pixy stix, no snorting this time (...OW!)<br /><br />Uh...yeah, then we were up till 3 am talking about the meaning of life...and she just left...<br /><br />We drank all my mom's coffee though, hah, she got mad.<br />Okay that's about it...<br /><br />Shogina Ponlally.<br /><br />Toodles. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:187507 2003-04-13T03:40:20Z 2003-04-13T03:40:20Z phakelmpt...<br /><br />my throat's all fa clumped. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:187339 2003-04-13T03:35:38Z 2003-04-13T03:35:38Z I was a genie for halloween that winter. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:186901 2003-04-13T03:35:11Z 2003-04-13T03:35:11Z "that' shoginna ponlally?"<br /><br />oh saheem, come in for some rice curry?<br /><br />YOU THINK THAT'S GONNA MAKE ME PONLALLY!? WELL YOU HAVE AN OBJECTION!!<br /><br />i dont wanna pimporess anyone urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:186644 2003-04-13T01:43:25Z 2003-04-13T01:43:25Z THRUST ME<br /><br />"I know you make up stories, it's okay"<br />::storms off::<br />::20 minutes later::<br />::walks back in house...mean look::<br />::picks up keys, leaves::<br /><br />TUNA AND CRACKERS<br /><br />Gonads and LIGHTNING!!<br /><br />PIDDLE PADDLE POOOOO!!<br /><br />it'll be a not licer!!<br /><br />there's a GUMBALL? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:186541 2003-04-12T15:51:09Z 2003-04-12T15:51:09Z TSL - saddest girl story Aw...Mikey's in his cage...so fucking sad. Motherfucker.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Remember that whole Benji/Cashdog situation??<br />...yeah. I think I'm borderline.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Hey...22 days to like Good Charlotte again...<br />(yeah...I'm listening to them now, go me)<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />It's a strange CD list this week...<br /><br />Finch <br />Good Charlotte<br />Jimmy Eat World<br />Lit (OLDSCHOOL BABY...Tripping the light fantastic)<br />and I couldn't quite ditch TSL yet...<br />::sigh::<br />Ken...he's such a fucking hot fudgepacker:/<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Time to listen to Mikey cry...<br />oh my. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:186120 2003-04-12T15:05:58Z 2003-04-12T15:05:58Z lit - cadillac (old school, baby!) So last night was just suckage.<br />I layed in bed for a few hours, my eyes burning, all that shit...<br />Then I just fell asleep at 11...<br />So so lame.<br /><br />Anyways...<br />today...<br />I woke up..."babysat" the fucking dog...<br />listened as more people made plans for the weekend...<br /><br />Then realized...<br />hey, everyone's actually having fun with their lives...<br /><br />and what am I doing?<br /><br />...THIS...<br /><br />my life blows, baby.<br /><br />I mean as of right now I'm still in an okay mood, for no reason, I mean after last night I should be dead...<br />but I don't know, something happens...I get over the shit that's supposed to stay with me very fast...<br />and the stupid shit that I'm supposed to just forget because it's not important...well that stays with me forever.<br /><br />It's strange.<br />POINT IS...<br /><br />Ugh!! WHEN am I going to start living?! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:186051 2003-04-12T00:41:39Z 2003-04-12T00:41:59Z Oh yeah...<br />and my mom made me not make plans all weekend...<br />because of her really weird reasoning...<br /><br />...and now they all have plans!!<br />I'M FUCKING HOME ALONE WITH THE ANIMAL ALL FUCKING WEEKEND!!<br />...life blows baby!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:185760 2003-04-12T00:40:52Z 2003-04-12T00:40:52Z So, well, today, it all just went down...<br /><br />1st - history...<br />Notes with Kelly about turkey and curds!! great shit...<br /><br />2nd - theater...<br />No Mike. He's the only one who coulda motherfucking amused me, and he wasn't there. Just...MOTHERFUCK.<br />Oh, and James...YOU SUCK!!<br /><br />3rd - spanish...<br />WOO! PARTY!! hah...<br />Mrs. O'Shea's LEAVING US!!<br />It's so motherfucking sad!!<br />...but YUM to the dip stuff...<br />and the 2 cupcakes!<br />...and...um...I DIDN'T FUCK HIM IN GOD'S BASEMENT!!<br />lol...yes, LOL...yeah, I said it;)<br /><br />4th - english...<br /><br />Nothing...wrote a note, I think...<br /><br />5th - gym...<br /><br />Took a test...<br />then just sat on balls mwahah...<br />big ones. (exercise balls)<br />and Tom asked if I'd give someone head...<br /><br />6th - chem...<br /><br />she turned off the motherfucking lights!!<br />...to look at a purple light thingy...<br />cool beans man.<br /><br />7th - lunch...<br /><br />ate...<br />Katie told jokes...<br />then me and Kelly went up to the art room...<br />where I had a ghetto fight with Tweeter...great shit.<br /><br />8th - algebra...<br /><br />80ish on a quiz, that's going on the fridge baby.<br />and my first board point! Yeah baby!!<br /><br />9th - art...<br /><br />Didn't quite finish my art project:(<br />But no one cares really...<br />That's all...<br /><br /><br /><br />Then I went home...<br />Sam came with me...she came in, played with Mikey, left like 20 minutes later...<br /><br />Then came hell.<br /><br />-----------------------------<br /><br />Once my sister came home...shit just got nasty. She was in a bad mood from a fight with my mom...and took it out on me...then came the plain out LYING. Just ugh.<br /><br />And then I...broke??<br />It was one of my episodes...the bad ones. Death on the floor, heavy breathing, sudden outbursts and screams, the blank stares and muteness, the hyperventalating and tears...<br />and all that shit.<br /><br />3 hours later...<br /><br />Mom and I decided on a shrink:/<br /><br />It's harsh, really.<br />I don't like this shit that's going on with me. I HATE it. But it's gotta get me somewhere in life, right??<br /><br />I have no idea what's gonna happen with me, or what IS happening...<br /><br />but on the bright side...<br />whoever sticks with me...<br />well, I guess they're the real friends, that kinda deal??<br />Test of faith baby.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Okay so I was disgustingly sick and crazy and NOT HAPPY AT ALL before but because of the way I am...it faded into a fake and random normalcy so now I'm in an alright mood...yeah, you all needed to know that, man I love ****, okay, now I'm gonna go do...something. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:185379 2003-04-11T02:15:49Z 2003-04-11T02:15:49Z TSL - tell the truth So today was...today.<br /><br />1st period - history...<br />test postponed...YES!!<br /><br />I fell asleep, then hit my head, and everyone made fun of me. that's all...<br /><br />2nd - theater...<br /><br />my scene today...it went alright. FLOOFY SKIRT!! hah!<br />uh...I think Chris broke my nose with a breadstick - oh my motherfucker it hurt!!<br /><br />oh, and Mike found out about my arm :/<br /><br />3rd - spanish...<br /><br />BULLFIGHTS!! Ole!!<br />And notes to everyone.<br /><br />4th - english...<br />nothing really...just...nothing.<br /><br />5th & 6th - lab...<br /><br />POPCORN!! hah, lots of mistakes...too much oil, not enough oil, it was insanity!! PLUS FIRE!! And a cursed coffee can.<br /><br />7th - lunch...<br /><br />Me and Kelly broke the door:/<br />...oh, and I had a breakdown...<br />which just came across as being annoying...<br />...oops...<br /><br />8th - algebra...<br /><br />I was still going crazy...<br />enough said.<br /><br />9th - art...<br /><br />I TRIED Kelly's quiet thing - DIDN'T WORK!! And the radio was satan!! I swear!! ALL THE BAD SONGS!!<br /><br />Then I went home...<br />on the bus I found out Jamie Rice wants to kill me because I was Avril Lavigne for halloween (that rhymes) hah, just, fuck, it was funny...I was like oh yes, the queen of hardcore is lecturing me on something that was only a joke? <br />Right...<br /><br />Then I went home...<br />played with the dog for an hour...<br />then Linds came home and holy fuck there was something up her ass...<br /><br />she was such a fucking ditz...<br />I'm vommiting and trying to get ready for my retreat...<br />and I ask her to watch the fucking dog for 5 minutes and she's like WHY SO YOU CAN PRIMP SOME MORE, AND PUT ON SOME MORE MAKEUP!?<br />...Nice...I was in sweats and I wasn't WEARING makeup...<br />But let blondie be the judge...<br /><br />Yeah, she just pisses me off...cuz she promises so many things, and just...lies.<br />And contradicts everything she says. Hypocracy to the max.<br /><br />Then I went on the retreat...<br />when I got there I was attacked by happy "I love God" people...it was like "HI MY NAME IS JDSKFJDSKFDS HOW ARE YOU!? IT'S SO NICE TO MEET YOU!!! WHAT SCHOOL ARE YOU FROM!??! DO YOU LOVE GOD?!"<br />...and uh...BAM!!<br /><br />Yeh, so then some pretty fucked shit went down...<br />I just cracked up to myself...because there was no one there to appreciate the humor in the stupidity of it all...<br /><br />Then we broke into "small groups" and we talked a lot about sex and drugs...yeah so apparently I'm sinning in thinking that sex before marriage isn't a bad thing...<br />Oh well, I can't go to hell, it doesn't exist??<br /><br />Yeah...<br />so then we ate...<br />and I was "the outcast"<br />hah...it was fun...I was with all these people from Pequanock and it was just like...um...hey...<br /><br />Yeah, but they were cool...I met this kid...he's in my confirmation group thing, but I never actually talked to him...he's pretty cool...<br /><br />Yeah...so then I came home...<br />and things crashed again...<br /><br />Mom...Dad...reminder of the sister thing...it was just too much, and when I tried to talk about something it just blew up in my face...<br /><br />I'm not what people think I am...<br />sometimes I actually do know what I'm talking about. I don't know. I want that therapy now. Now that I can't have it anymore...<br /><br />Yeah...so that's about it for now...<br />oh...and I have a plastic knife!! haha...it's just ... SHARP!! And therefore a cool thing to play with.<br /><br />Alright, it's only 10, but I'm tired as fuck, and angry, and all that shit...so I'm going to bed...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />=whit- urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:185275 2003-04-09T23:14:43Z 2003-04-09T23:14:43Z Last mental note...promise...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />KEN'S SO FUCKING HOT...<br />and yeah. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:184958 2003-04-09T23:14:14Z 2003-04-09T23:14:14Z Make Kelly's CD... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:184810 2003-04-09T23:13:55Z 2003-04-09T23:16:16Z Wear TSL shirt tomorrow urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:184484 2003-04-09T23:13:21Z 2003-04-09T23:13:21Z tsl - best of me (i'm addicted lately) Alright so obviously I was on edge last night...<br />stupid stuff affected me...you know the drill, it made me do stupid crazy things...I'm working on it, blah blah, you know the deal...<br /><br />Anyways...<br />4am...<br />I wake up to sick convulsions...<br />it was scary...<br />as fuck. I mean seriously...worse than I've had in the past few months...<br /><br />So that lasted about a half hour...<br />Then I woke up at 5...the dog was crying...so I had to take him out and stuff...<br /><br />Then I went back to sleep...<br />woke up at 6...chest pains, holy FUCK it hurt...<br />So I got dressed and stuff for school...<br />but then I had an attack of some sort, and I couldn't go to school...that was yet another fun experience...<br /><br />So I accomplished nothing all day, because the damn dog wouldn't leave me alone...I swear I'm never having kids...<br /><br />And holy fuck once again, you should see what he did to me...<br />the damn sharp puppy teeth fucking hurt!!<br /><br />Um...<br />yeah...<br />Tomorrow is my scene for theater...<br />and I don't know my lines really, or what to wear for it, oh well I'll think of something...<br /><br />Oh, and I have a history test friday...that I was GOING to study for today (cuz I have the gay ass retreat for confirmation Thursday 4-930) but um...yeah...Katie didn't bring the book yet...and I have the feeling she just forgot...<br /><br />So I don't care, I'll just ask to take it on Monday or something, no big deal...<br /><br />Uh, what else?<br />Oh...yeah I should have read the fucking book for English...I have 98349389 more chapters to read...<br /><br />Okay, and Katie just came with the book...hah, I have no faith, I'm a motherfucking ... fucker. Yeah...<br />(gotta love the fucking extensive vocabulary, um...fuck)<br /><br />Yeah so anyways...<br />I've given up on school...<br />Junior year's the one that counts anyway...<br />Plus sometimes I just don't know if I'm making it as far as college...<br />I mean if I can't handle life when it's this easy...<br />I just don't know...<br /><br />The easy way out is just really appealing sometimes...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Let's see what else is there??<br />I think that's it...now the dog's in his cage and he's crying like fuck...it's insane...10 minutes of peace!! That's all I want!! I'd say Jesus...but I'm not Catholic anymore (hard habbit to break...)<br /><br />So yeah...<br />Now I have to clean my room...<br />and then maybe study...<br />Maybe...um...I don't know...maybe NOT be a waste...<br />but I doubt that'll happen...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />=whit= urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:184274 2003-04-08T23:47:42Z 2003-04-08T23:47:42Z This feels all wrong.<br />Man, I'm slipping. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:183927 2003-04-08T23:45:24Z 2003-04-08T23:45:24Z I just got a really bad feeling...<br />like one of those "pit of your stomache" deals...<br /><br />...cuz I just remembered this thing that happened with my dad about 6 months ago...<br /><br />"just because you're a self declared nonparent doesn't mean i have to suffer"<br />"what did you say!?!?!??!"<br />::beats whitney::<br />::whitney wants to die::<br /><br />that wasn't cool. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:183552 2003-04-08T23:40:33Z 2003-04-08T23:40:33Z My layout is all...pink.<br /><br />...I don't...like...pink... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:183513 2003-04-08T23:39:34Z 2003-04-08T23:39:34Z I feel like crying...<br />but I can't.<br />Damn meds.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I just feel the strong need to go back into my old habbit of turning off all the lights except the red and the strobe lights and just CRY for hours...<br /><br />Damn, it sucks so bad but I want it so bad. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:coreyxtaylor:183280 2003-04-08T22:50:33Z 2003-04-08T22:50:33Z dieradiodie - as soon as beauty dies (attack of the ads mofo My day was pretty crazy on the inside...<br /><br />I woke up 5:30...took a shower...THEN found out we had a delayed opening...why, I don't know...<br /><br />so I couldn't go back to sleep, damn Mikey. So he slept with me in my bed for 2 hours, that was ... um ... yeah.<br /><br />Then I went to school...<br />homeroom was just me trying to comunicate with Steph...but she doesn't listen to any of the random things I talk about, but hell, it's called a conversation, you think everyone always wants to hear every little bit of unimportant irrelevant bullshit people talk about? BUT YOU DO IT ANYWAY!!<br /><br />Yeah, so then history...<br />we didn't do anything, as usual. Ryan was there. He was in his seat. Which has been MY seat. Cuz...I uh...like it. So he got up...and I stole it back. Yeah, I'm hardcore baby!!<br />(And damn proud of my accomplishment)<br /><br />Then came the orange altoids that make you drool, and "STORY TIME KIDS!!" "Whit, you'd make the scariest nanny" and the "So there'd be another funeral" "WHITNEY YOU'RE A PSYCHO" thing...<br />that was interesting.<br />Oh. and ... LISA HAS A VIBRATOR, LISA HAS A VIBRATOR!!<br />Hah!!<br /><br />Then theater.<br />Line test. I didn't know it, I lost the script. Bullshit. I looked at Mike's. (He knows my lines better than I do anyways - in the middle of the line test he like gave me the first part of my line I was like huh...what?!)<br /><br />Anyways, that was that, it was boring...I had no pills to take...I found a little red one...took it, without knowing what it was...but it didn't do anything. I guess it's one of those ones you have to take 8 of to feel it. All I needed was something to get me through the day...that's how I've been getting by lately, and if it works, it works, right??<br /><br />Then Spanish. Made another list. Holy motherfucker what a waste.<br /><br />English. Handed in my paper. FINALLY. 9 pages. Yeah baby.<br />Read 3 chapters of the book I was supposed to have finished by Monday. <br />...only about 20 more to go. (Literally:/)<br /><br />Gym. <br />No point in getting dressed. <br />Test tomorrow.<br />Waste.<br /><br />Chem...<br />another waste. <br />Oh, and no matter how many times I try to convince myself of...um...something...IT DOESN'T WORK. I fall hard. What can I say?<br /><br />Lunch. Many things went right over someone's head. That was hilarious. I had the feeling Katie was in one of her "Whitney's annoying" moods...but I ignored it. I might bring it up later. Who knows. <br /><br />Algebra. Once again - WASTE.<br />I have a 69 test average...and a makeup tomorrow. NOW I HAVE TO STUDY THE WHOLE FUCKING CHAPTER...from about 2 months ago. COMPLETE BULLSHIT.<br /><br />Art. Handed in my sketchbook. (finally)<br />I knocked over the pile of loud metal things.=embarrassing - but really funny. Um...that's about it. Except the song.<br /><br />(Arubia, Jamakia(that's how it's spelled, shut up), Bermudia, Bahamia, ...um, Mamia)<br />Hah...Yup, WE KNOW THE WORDS!! Right Kelly??<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Then I went home...<br />had to deal with Mikey. The cuteness is fading. Now he's just a pain in the ass. And...not a good dog. Not at all. Motherfucker.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Then yeah, bla bla, a few episodes, then my mom got mad at me...for having a bad day and not wanting to talk about it, yup, that's grounds for anger...<br /><br />She just doesn't get it...<br />just because I don't want to fucking talk about something doesn't mean I have a fucking attitude. Seriously...most kids don't tell their parents anything...I tell her way too much. I've spoiled her with that. (That sounds retarded)<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Anyways...<br />I have a test to study for. 2 actually...and uh, other stuff to do. (No, of course I'm not gonna catch up on work I haven't done. That would be the smart "I actually wanna go to college someday" thing to do).<br /><br />Alright. I'm off then. And anonymous...you've completed what you wanted to...<br />I'm a fucking nut about insecurity...<br />but the only one honest enough to admit such shit.<br /><br />I'm flawed. I'll get over it.<br />(I just randomly got that eminem song stuck in my head - superman...or whatever)<br /><br /><br /><br />=whit-